That's P-O-C-O...

I have a devil of a time trying to explain myself sometimes. So I am always oddly relieved when I run across a passage in a book that I can point to and say, "There! That! That's how I feel!"

Like this passage from David Sedaris' Barrel Fever -

I, personally, do not care one way or the other. I don't wish her the worst, nor do I wish her the best. I don't wish her period. Her very existence is a mistake, but it is not my mistake, so I'd rather not waste my time thinking about it.

pococurante
adjective
Indifferent; apathetic; nonchalant.